Monday, October 19, 2009

20th October 2009

Hello dear,

I have decided to write to you as frequent as possible – even though a short entry. Hope you don’t mind, dear. You know how “good” I can be when it comes to writing. Hehehe

Anyway, I’m feeling rather sleepy today. I didn’t do any beading work last night but I guess my biological clock is so used to late nights. As such, I was wide awake despite of the darkness. I stayed awake from 12 – 2am. What was I doing in the dark? Well, clearing my mobile phone inbox and reading all your smses. I miss you la Yang.

Due to that, guess what your lil penguin did yesterday? Suddenly the idea came to me while I was in the train, otw back. Remember I use to keep your voice clip which says “I love you”? Well, me trying to be creative, I actually insert that clip in between every song in my playlist. There for, once a song is over, I can hear u saying “I love you”, then followed by the next song. Ha-ha-ha. Cool eh!

I told Ita about this and say “Please don’t say that I’m insane”. Guess what she said,Yang? She said “You are insanely inlove, kak” ha-ha-ha. Kecoh la me, kan?

Sunday, October 18, 2009

October 19, 2009

It’s been long since I last written any entry to you. Really am sorry abt that ya. I’ll promise I’ll to you more frequent in future. Hehehe

Dear, I’ve been missing you a lot lately. I have been writing letters to you but till today, no reply. Sad sad sad. How are you dear? Are you OK? I’ve asked Kak Idah, if she’s ok. Cos she once told me that both of you have this “twining effect” (I gave that name..hahaha) It simply means that , if one of you were to fall sick, the other one will feel the same. So when she said she OK, just a lil stress due to work, I guess u must be feeling the same. Abang don’t over work, ok. Ha-ha-ha look who’s talking. Hehehe

U know what, dear? I’ve found out that everytime I read your letters or emails, I can feel your presence and that somehow ease the pain I have in me (from missing you). Your sweet words…. The way you express your love…… I really find it very soothing. Thank you dear, for writing to me those lovely emails. They are like treasure to me.

Yang, remember about my beading work? I know I promise to take a break after raya, but I guess I have to break that promise la, Yang. Two weeks ago, I received a dress and yesterday, received another baju kurung. Huhuhu. At times I do feel tired and stressed but hey……. Maybe this is what they call “rezeki”, betul tak, Abang? Alhamdulillah. So I should not say no to it, right? At least it can help me with my expenses. Who would have thought that this little business of mine can actually have these many customers.

But despite all that....... I'm missing you so badly.

Just to share my lil beading assignment over the weekend. :-)

Friday, June 5, 2009

Being hurt.....

Dearest one,

If only you know just how much I love you, you would probably know how deeply hurt I can be right now. If the saying goes “First cut is the deepest”, but this time around, the cut goes deep to the core.

The idea of viewing your Tagged was actually not a wise move. It was meant to help me to ease the pain I had from missing you. However I ended up crying to the whole night. I feel hurt, betrayed, cheated by the person whom I loved the most. Nevertheless, zillion thanks go to that little angel of mine (Ita) who actually helped me to be strong.

At times, I wonder, it is the distance, or maybe the presence or it is just the person. I don’t know. However, if you decide to change your mind, please don’t hesitate to tell me. I will be lying if I were to say I’m ok with that decision of yours. However, I will definitely pray for your happiness.

You once told me that it is not easy to be there. Today, I guess I’ve proven that it is not easy to be out here too. Gosh! What am I doing? I’m sorry dear…. So so sorry. I guess when you miss a person so badly , you have the tendency to do stupid things and this is a very good example. Stupid and yet painful. Whatever it is, whoever you choose, always remember that someone in a far away land loves you much much.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Sunny Sunday

Monday 1 June 2009

Hello dearest one. Just to share with you about the adventure I had yesterday with my little sister, Wawa. Bro had some work to do. Therefore, sis and I decided to have our lil girls’ day out thingy again. We left home at about 11am and came back at 4.30pm. hehehe. Yes, we shop and shop and shop until we could hardly have any strength left to walk. Initial plan was to get both of us a pair of good running shoes. Adidas shoes to be more specific. Hehehe. That was the initial instruction given by bro. However, I think you should know me too well by now. And wawa is no difference . So, as a result, we ended up buying 2 pairs of outing shoes each and some office outfits. Hehehe. When we reach home, bro asked “Where are the running shoes?”

Guess what answer did we gave. “We couldn’t find the shoes” hahaha. Bro didn’t say a word after that. kekeke

Sorry dear. So sorry . I plan to write to you last night. However, I was so tired and my knees are aching. So I jump into bed early. Sorry eh Sayang. I’ll promise to write to you tonight, ok. Meantime, I’m still waiting for your reply. By the way, Ita told me not to write to often to you, or else they will keep my letters and will only hand over to you the following month. So I decided to write more often to this blog of ours. Please don’t think that I’ve forgotten you or love you any less after you left. All remain intact. In fact, it continues to grow and waiting for you to be a freeman for it to bloom, blooms like flowers do during springtime.

Night at the Museum 2



26 May 2009, I went to watch Night at the Museum 2 at KLCC. As usual, me and my siblings. Don’t worry, dear. No guys dare to ask me out. hahaha! Anyway, I went to buy the tickets after work and the show started at 9pm. The best part was, yesterday was Ladies Night. When the guy at the counter asked me “All ladies?” , I don’t know why I answered “Yes” hehehe. So ended up feeling panic, in case bro didn’t get through. But phewwwww, they were not that strict that night. Hahaha. Otherwise, bro would need to wear a shirt (not to mention those unshaved legs hahaha).


Anyway, really enjoyed the movie. Hilarious. It manage to keep me awake, despite having a plate of Chicken Rice just before the show. Hehehe.
But dear, no matter how great a movie can be, it doesn’t feel complete, without you around. Really miss u, much much much.

Water bottle

Helloooo… It is me again. I have just posted a letter for you today. Hopefully it will reach you safely and will make your day. Don’t worry if they don’t allow you to reply, ok dear. I know, deep down in your heart, you will be saying, “I miss you so much and love you much2 more” hehehe.

Anyway, here I am, writing to you via blog. At times, I do get confused between letters and blog. I thought I have told you about something but it was actually written in this blog. hehehe Kecoh la me, kan? Anyway, last Sunday, as usual I went out with my siblings. I bought a water bottle, for my jogging session. Hehehe. It’s green and small 450ml. Wawa said, might as well u use the mineral water bottle. Bluekkkk….!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Beef burger with Mushroom sauce.


Beef burger with mushroom sauce.

YUMMYYYYYYY…..! Guess what? I actually prepared this dish. Unbelievable? Well you better believe it dear! Your little kecoh penguin prepared this dish. Hahaha. Of course it taste great la dear, despite this is my very first attempt to prepare western meal. Hehehe. But you know what, dear? I got the recipe all mixed up. Beef, shallots, parmesan cheese and spices all mixed together. Then deep into the egg and roll on the breadcrumbs before putting it in a pan. Fry till cook. Well, that was what I did.
But do u know what is the actual recipe? Mix all the above and fry. Hahaha. So the breadcrumbs and egg are suppose to go INTO the mixture. No dipping or rolling is required. Kekeke Kecoh kan your penguin ni? Take a look at this photo. I missed out the coleslaw. It’s in another bowl. :-)

My Stepper


Hello Abang,

How are you? It has been a while since my last entry in this blog. It ‘s weird to know that one can have lots of think to share but when it comes to writing, your ideas and stories just vanished in thin air.

Anyway, today, I feel like sharing with you something which is very dear to me, who is now my best friend while you are away. Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
My dearest STEPPER!!! Hoyay!!!! Abang, meet my stepper. Stepper, meet abang. Kekeke. But unfortunately, my is black. How I wish I can get this blue unit. Whatever it is, a stepper is still a stepper, right? However, I still prefer to jog, where you get to enjoy the beautiful view and fresh air. Hey, you know what, dear? This is the 4th week ever since I started to jog. Which is equivalent to a month. Cool eh? And this also means, that you have been away for 5 weeks.
I really2 miss you la dear. When are you coming back?

Monday, May 4, 2009

Visiting Day.....


Last night, at almost midnight, I was getting ready to go to bed. Suddenly Ita sms me. Asking me if I’m online. She has some news for me. Somehow, my heart beats faster than usual. Scared, excited, panic, happy, all mixed feelings. So I quickly login to MSN (using my hand phone) and chat with her. I have to say her very first sentence disappoint me to the core. “Kak, we will not be visiting abang tomorrow” At that moment, I feel blank, lost and not knowing how to respond. It is simple because I have been looking forward to this day, for me to get updates from you. The duration, the situation, the progress and most importantly, to get your mailing address, so that I can write to you. So the thought that she will not be visiting you, really break my heart. However, it doesn’t last long.

Her next line was, “Abg called kak ida. He said he will not be long there , so no need to come and visit” That really brings a smile on my face. You know why? This simply means that I will be seeing my abg real soon. Will be looking forward to that day. I was so into the visiting issue, until I forgot to ask ita how are you doing kat dalam. I hope everything is O.K.! Not to worry about me. I’m still here, waiting for you. :-)

You'll Never Walk Alone

Liverpool (3) vs New Caste (0)

Hoyay!!! That was the result from yesterday’s game. The game started at 8.30pm. We reach KL (from Ipoh) at about 8pm. Then bro and cousin decides to watch the game at Mamak. The girls are also invited (Jan, Wawa and me). It was fun, to watch the game with the rest of the Liverpool fans. I think this is my first time, watching the game in public. Hehehe.

Went back home right after the game. My cousin sent me and sis back as bro going for his badminton session with his friends. Reach home at about 11. I chat with Ita before going to bed. She was telling me about her plan to further study. Of course I encouraged her. It’s for her own good and she will definitely benefit from it. I also mention to her that despite all these, it is definitely not going to be a bed of roses. I had to struggle for 4 long years to obtain my degree. Good things don’t come easy.

Wah..! Now I can be a motivator eh? hehehe

Sunday, April 26, 2009

My Soulmate

This is my favourite ....!

MY SOULMATE!

DEAR READER,

THIS COMES IN HOPING TO FIND YOU WELL;
THERE'S SOMETHING INSIDE ME I OUGHT TO TELL.
AS MY FINGERTIPS PUNCH EVERY WORD;
I REALLY, REALLY HOPE YOU'LL LIKE MY WORK.

I CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN I BID MY FAREWELL;
BUT 7 YEARS OF HAITUS, I'M CAME BACK FROM HELL.
WHEN I GAIN, AT LAST, MY FREEDOM BACK;
CLUELESS OF ME, UNSURE WHAT TO EXPECT.

I STARTED TO ROAM TO A DESTINATION OF NOWHERE;
INSIDE ME I KNOW SHE'S OUT THERE, SOMEWHERE.
COME UNDONE, I STARTED TO DESCEND MY PACE;
THEN I SAW THIS INNOCENT, SMILING FACE.

AT ONE GLANCE, IN MY HEART I KNOW IT WAS YOU;
THAT CONSTANT SILHOUETTE THAT I'VE ALWAYS VIEWED.
SUDDENLY, THE CRAVING TO KNOW YOU IS REAL;
IS THIS FEELINGS I HAD GENUINE OR MERE VIRTUAL?

WITH SHAKING HAND I THROW THE DICE;
WAITING ANXIOUSLY, HOPING FOR HER REPLY.
SCRUTINZING AT THE BLINKING SCREEN BEFORE ME;
FOR HOURS I'VE WAITED, YOUR ARRIVAL YET TO BE SEEN.

SO I PACKED MY BAG, BID MY GOODBYES;
WITH TREMBLING HANDS, WEARY EYES.
ISOLATED MYSELF, DON'T WANT TO COMMUNICATE;
CAME UNEXPECTEDLY, THIS E-MAIL FAR AWAY'

AS I CLICK, MY ADRENALINE RUSH LASTED FOR HOURS,
SAY YOU'RE FOR ME AND THIS RELATIONSHIP I'LL ENDEAVOUR.
SOMETIMES I THINK THIS STATEMENT IS FUNNY TOO;
BUT DEAR, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU EVEN BEFORE I MET YOU.

I'LL LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND IF YOU ARE MEANT FOR ME TO TAKE;
WITH THESE FORLORN HANDS, I'LL BUILD A CASTLE FOR YOU TO STAY.
PLEASE BE THE QUEEN OF MY VERY HEART, I BEAR NOT BE APART;
LEAVING ME IS LIKE TEARING ME INTO SMALLEST, SMALLEST PARTS.

I'LL CALL YOU IF I'VE A KING'S RANSOM IN DIME;
JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT.
IF YOU ARE NOT MEANT FOR ME, I'LL BREAK;
THEN I'LL STRIDE AWAY FROM YOU, MY SOULMATE!

For the one i love......










This poem was written on 17th May 2007.
I can't believe I actual wrote this poem for you, dear.
Hahaha (How on earth I manage to write such lovely poem)

3rd February was when I met my soulmate,
Special person which I will never trade.
Roses are red, violets are blue,
My life begins when I met you,

Starts with a hello, short and simple,
Grows into something irrevocable,
To live without you, it's just impossible,
Dear, you are so irreplaceable,

You make me feel like I'm in heaven,
The best place that God has given,
Friendster and MSN brought us together,
Heartening the "butterfly" to fly ever higher.

To be with you, I'll run all the way,
Even if it means crossing the causeway.
Keep your promise, dear, somehow, someway
I beg you, Sayang, please don't you go away.

In my heart you will stay,
Never will I let it slip away,
Always keep this in mind what I will say,
I love you till my dying day.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Jogging session @ Tasik Permaisuri

Good morning dearest one,

How are you today? I'm feeling great with a slight bodyache. Maybe it's due to my jogging session by the lake yesterday evening. When to the lake with my sis and parents. In total, i guess i jogged for almost 4km. Not bad eh? Can't wait to surprise you with my new appreance. However, most importantly, I want to be healthy.

Did I tell you that recently, a guy had a chest pain. So he drove himself to the hospital. Upon reaching the hospital, Dr claim that he's in good condition and nothing to be worried about. Out of a sudden, he collapsed and passaway. It was a sudden death to the family and friends. Sad, kan dear. So that is why, I'm trying to start a new healthy lifestyle. hehehe. Wish me luck, ya. Plan to go to the lake again today. Hoyay...!!!!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

It's my jogging day....

I DID IT! I DID IT!

Do you know why I am so excited, dear? It is simply because I finally manage to get myself out from the house and jog! Yes, you read it correctly. Your little penguin went for a jogging session with her brother and sister yesterday evening (after work). It is only for a short distance but at least something for a start, right? In total, I jog for about 3km. Not bad kan? hehehe Too bad I didn’t get a chance to snap a photo of me jogging. Maybe I’ll do that in the next session and post it here, k. Like you said, you have done your part. So now, it is my turn, to play my part. Wait for you patiently and also get rid of some kilos. Hehehe I want to surprise you with my new appearance and hopefully it will happen.MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Your crying baby


Hehehe...... Buruk kan? This is your crying baby, dear. Naughty girl eh, tak dengar cakap abg, not to cry. But surprisingly, I didn't cry that often. Serious la dear. Hehehe.... Hard to believe eh? Well, u know what? I cried last night. Reason being, ever since you are gone, I've always wanted to dream about you. But sad to say, you have never appear in any of my dreams. And i miss you so badly. That was why I cried last night. You know what , dear? Last night, finally you appeared in my dream, in the most romantic way. :-)

Thank you dear, for making that appearence. However, at 3am, i was waken by the strong wind. It was raining heavily outside with strong wind. Due to strong wind, my window was widely open. As such, my curtain was flying as if nak tercabut already. Hahaha..... (My english rabak sey) Anyway, too bad that sweet dream had to end suddenly :-( sob sob sob. Anyway, at least I got to see you, eventhough justin a dream.

Love you, dear.
I know, you miss me too over there.
Be patience my dear. Think about the future, our future, ok.
Can't wait to write to you. :-)
Its getting late. Its now 2340hrs. I better hit the bed or abg gonna shout at me and say "Ayang....... SLEEP!!!!!" hehehe
I miss that shout of yours. huhuhu
Many atimes I almost dialed your number, thinking that you are around. :-( Looking forward to the ending of this short separation.

Love you. MUAK!!!

21st April 2009



Dearest Abang,

Sorry for not updating this blog for a while. Life has been pretty hectic lately. But that doesn't mean that I've forgotten you. Not even for a single millisecond that you are not in my thoughts, dear. Anyway, want to share these photos with you. Last Saturday, I miss you so badly.

To overcome that, I decided to clean up my bedroom. Abang want to see the result? See! I told you I can manage myself and keep myself occupied while you are away. So worry not my dear. Your little penguin will be just fine. Check-out these photos, dear. My bedroom.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

16 April 2009

GOOD NEWS.

I was on the way to work, to be more specific, queing for my train, i received a text message from "Ita SG". And u know what, dear? She told me that "Abg has long surrendered, since 11 April". I know i should feel sad, but instead only God knows how relief I felt. At least now I know that you are safe, dear. Most of all, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, My dearest Abang. Proud because you finally took this major step. I'll wait for you, this I promise you.

Ita told me that she will be able to visit you in 2 weeks time. I'll be counting the days. In fact, i'm counting the day that you'll be released.

Take good care of yourself, k dear. Cos I am.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

13th April 2009


Today is the fourth day since you have been gone. Ita and I have been worrying and waiting for you. We pray that you are in a place somewhere safe and in good health.
Is this what you meant when you say “It’s hard to say goodbye to someone you love?” Well, dear, you don’t have to worry about me, ok. I’ll be fine. I’ll promise to take good care of myself and wait for you.


You know what, Yang? Yesterday, my siblings, and me went to watch a movie, Fast and Furious 4. One of the best movies. Nanti when abang dah release , we shall go for movies together, ok. Yesterday wawa booked for an early bird show, 11am. And the rule is that, we need to collect the tickets 45mins before the show. So you can imagine the “chaoticness” at home, having to wake my brother on Sunday morning. Arghhhh. Anyway, I really enjoy the movie. Not to mention Van Dissel too hehehe.