Friday, June 5, 2009

Being hurt.....

Dearest one,

If only you know just how much I love you, you would probably know how deeply hurt I can be right now. If the saying goes “First cut is the deepest”, but this time around, the cut goes deep to the core.

The idea of viewing your Tagged was actually not a wise move. It was meant to help me to ease the pain I had from missing you. However I ended up crying to the whole night. I feel hurt, betrayed, cheated by the person whom I loved the most. Nevertheless, zillion thanks go to that little angel of mine (Ita) who actually helped me to be strong.

At times, I wonder, it is the distance, or maybe the presence or it is just the person. I don’t know. However, if you decide to change your mind, please don’t hesitate to tell me. I will be lying if I were to say I’m ok with that decision of yours. However, I will definitely pray for your happiness.

You once told me that it is not easy to be there. Today, I guess I’ve proven that it is not easy to be out here too. Gosh! What am I doing? I’m sorry dear…. So so sorry. I guess when you miss a person so badly , you have the tendency to do stupid things and this is a very good example. Stupid and yet painful. Whatever it is, whoever you choose, always remember that someone in a far away land loves you much much.