Dearest abang,
I've just received your letter earlier today. I know I should be happy. I am indeed. So happy to hear from you. However, I just couldn't understand why am I crying now, while i'm typing this entry to you. Maybe the fact that you'll be missing the WorldCup (which is happening in June) is another way for you to inform me that your appplication for early release has been rejected. Suddenly I feel that Dec is just so far away, especially when i've already make plans to visit you soon. Why must this fact be so painful when it is nothing new and something which is expected already. Why, dear? I guess I've been putting too high hopes, huh. My fault. Maybe it is also because I'm missing you so very badly. huhuhu
