Thank you, Abg.

Thank you so much abg for this lovely gift from you.
Dated 27 July.........
And 4 years???? hmmmmmmm
Thank you so much again......

Royal Wedding (29 April 2011)

Macarons

Chakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!
Guess what are these!!!! These cuties are called MACARONS!!! hehehe.
Cute kan Yang. And they are super sweet. :-)
I bought them from a friend of mine. Nnt i'll learn how to bake them and buatkan utk abang ya. :-)
How was your day, dear? You must be very tired, kan? Cos you told me that you wanted to get online in the afternoon but you never did. :-) Not to worry. I totally understand. You need to get some rest. Nanti abg fall sick, how? Kesian abang.
You better take good care of yourself,ok.

Luv u, Sayang.
muahssssssssssssssssss

ps. me nak tidur now. sleep la Yang.

Wednesday 27April2011

Today, not much to say. Glad I had a chance to chat with my abang twice today. :-) So very happy. But somehow I still miss my munchkin. But I guess I have to be strong. Abang goes to work.

Peugeot 308 Turbo

Hahahaha... I guess I really surprised you when I said I wanted to buy a car, right? This Peugeot 308 to be more specific. Hehehe. Yes, I've been dreaming about this car for a while now. Imagining myself driving one of this muscular prince. :-D

Not sure if you can view this link.
http://www.wemotor.com/blog/2010/04/review-peugeot-308-turbo/

Can I have this car, Abang? plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz hehehe
btw, I want WHITE..... just like the one in the pic. hehehe

Tuesday 26April2011

Assalamualaikum abang

It's 10.30 and its the time i usually call u kan?
Huhuhu But tonite, abg at work.
Abg have to work to find money kan kan kan.
So, penguin hv to stay home and be good. Miss you abg.

I left office at 5.30 sharp. It was drizlling at that time and
by the time i reach the station, heavy rain Yang. Phewwww
Just made it!

Reach home at abt 7. Had kuey teow goreng for dinner.
Then me watch tv jap. Iron baju and here i am, writing to you.
Cos i miss you!!!! Muahssssss

Me nak sleep ya abg. Can i dream of u, Yang? :-)
Flap flap flap.....
Luv u, abg
Muahsssssss

Monday 25April2011

Aaaaaaaaaabang.......

I'm not sure when you will be reading this entry of mine. But I do not care. I still want to write to you. :-)

I called you last night but I guess you are already in lala land for some time. As such, you told me to call you back later which somehow made me go blur. I called you at 10.30pm just before going to bed and you told me to call you back later? hehehe. As expected, I slept like a log till morning. Sorry Sayang.

Morning - The usual monday morning. Got a few things to settle. As such, i didn't get a chance to call you. Again, I'm sorry dear. I tried calling you on the way back from work but I guess Abang has gone out to work. :-( And I doubt you will be at home tonight, right? So here I am, writing an entry to this blog, hoping that abang will read this little note from me to my abg dearie.

It's now 10.10pm and I promise to go to bed early ya.
MISS YOU, Abang..... Muahssssss

Movie...

GOOD LUCK, Abang

Today, my abang has a job interview.......


ALL THE BEST, Dear!!!!!! Alwiz praying for u. muahssssssssssssss

Get well soon, Abang.

My abang is not feeling well. Huhuhu. He sounded so sick last night. He has been sick quite frequent and yet still insist to go for treatment. :-( Kesian Abang. Since abang sleep early last night, I also went to bed early. I didn't even do any beading last night.

I hope he will feel better after reading this entry. Ha-ha-ha I really miss him. Miss my cheerful abang so very much. And really really hope that he will get well soon. Abang, don't forget to take ur medication, OK.

I miss my chocolate.

Maybe I should not have written what I wrote 2 days ago - about the arguement. And maybe that arguement should have never taken place. Cos today, we had the biggest ever arguement and guess what? He actually said the 3 magical words. No, its not "I love You" cos there were no more love in him. But WE BREAK UP.

Abg said it so smoothly as if he's prepared for this. But I'm not. I'm shocked and still am. Am i crying? Nope. I've been holding back my tears but now, in my room, updating this blog which i've created for him - just to show how much i love him, I don't think I can hold back any longer. And finally, I'm crying. Yes am i. I know, that's the reason why I didn't cry earlier. Cos I do not want him to see me crying. I do not want sympathy. All I want is my abang back and his love. :-(
I still can't believe that he actually said the word BREAK UP! Just 2 simple words, but I really feel like the sky had just fallen on me. Gosh... I miss him already. What shud i do now? Maybe I'll just cry till I falll asleep. But how long can i sleep. Sooner or later, I'll wake up - just to know that he will not be there for me like he use to.

HE - who alwiz bring smile to my face
HE - who will never make me cry (even if he did - he will make sure that i'll smile)
HE - who is always there for me when i needed him
HE - who is my bestest fren ( Lucky - used to be my fav song)
HE - my chocolate.

I MISS YOU, ABANG.

Love

I found this pic on the net and some how it reminds me of us. Wish we could have our pic taken in this pose someday. :-)
I'm not good with words or writing. I can't even write good poems like you do. hehehe. As such, I hope this pic will some how tell you just how much you mean to me. You are my world, yes you are. Muahsssssss

First arguement....

Saturday - 29 January 2011

I'm feeling really sad on this day. Why? Simply because we had our very first arguement after almost a month. Reason? Aaron Aziz. Hahaha. I was thinking of putting his pic here but on second thought, I better not. hehehe. As ridicilous as it may seem, but yes - that was the reason why we had this arguement. You have never ever raised your voice like that to me before (for the past 4 years) and tonight, you did. Positively - that shows just how much you love me. Not willing to take the risk of losing me. Hahaha (It's just me - being perasan. hehehe)

Whatever it is, I LOVE YOU Abang. Love you so very much.

Welcome home, Abang.....

7 more days to go... STILL.....

7 days to go (Wednesday)
The figure does not reduce due to the news I received yesterday – telling me that your “stay” has been extended. Abang, I seriously hope that there will be no more updates from you with regards to any extension of dates. L

7 more days to go......

7 days to go. (Tuesday)
A week more to go. Yes, I should be excited. Yes, I should be happy. To welcome home the person I love the most. But apparently that is not what I am feeling right now.
I have just received your letter dated sometime in November. The letter which you have decided to address to both me and kak Ida. I was totally clueless to find out that the content of the letter is 99.99999% for me. Hahaha What were you thinking, Dear? So malufying.
Anyway, it is not so much of kak reading the letter, but the content itself. You mentioned that your time has been extended by another day. L Here I am, counting the days while you – extending your stay. Sometimes I wonder – if you really care about me, about us.

8 days lagi.....

8 days more to go. (Monday)
Hoyayyyyyyyy….. I’m feeling so excited. Just 8 more days to go. Can’t believed that we almost finally did it, Abang. 30 months!!! Who would have thought that we can make it, but we did it! Muahsss!
Kak Idah told me that she had just received a letter from you and she will mail it to me. Hopefully the letter will reach me before your release, as I believed it has some information about your release. J
Can’t wait to call and hear your voice again. <3 <3 <3

9 Days to go.....

9 days more to go.
Sunday – It’s one of the Sundays which I need to wake up early. We have planned for a birthday breakfast for my cousin. As such, we need to be at the restaurant before 9am. Gosh!! Trust me – it wasn’t an easy task to wake up my brother hahaha!
The breakfast session was good. More photos are available at my Facebook.
Looking forward to chatting with you again on the net – like we use to. :-)

10 more days to go...

Saturday 18 Dec 2010

Countdown, 10 more days to go.
I woke-up slightly later today as it's an off-day for me. Made myself my fav drink, Nescafe and I planned to start with my new beading project. However, I ended up doing practically nothing. Spent the whole morning cleaning my room and my handbag. hahaha.
In the evening, i spent 1/2hour on the stepper. :-) Good girl, kan? Hehehe. Not so much about the weight lost thingy, though that can be one of the outcome. But I'm more concern with my health. I don't wish to fall sick again. Not in the near future. No more flu nor fever for 2010. hehehe Just want to stay healthy.
At night, spend time at home, watching TV. Sis went out on a date while bro went out with his friends.

MISS YOU, Abang.

11 days to go...

Dearest Abang....

11 more days to go. Gosh!! How time flies. 30 months. Who would have thought that we managed to go thru 30 months being apart. :-( But now, me ain't gonna turn back anymore. Really looking forward and excited to see you standing in front of me. Hope you feel the same.

The countdown has begin. Missing you, dear.

Today, I'm working in Cyberjaya. So, taking the opportunity to update this blog which I've left for quite some time. :-) Its a coudy morning and it's friday. Gosh! How I wish I could be at home, in bed to be specific. hehehe. But yeah, I have to work. Huhuhu.

Delhi - Day 3

Hye abang...

This morning I woke up rather late (6.30am local time). Tired i guess. The whole day discussing on the process. I went down at 7.30 for breakfast. Then went to work at 8.30 at usual.

Plan to go for some shopping after work but the meeting dragged till 7.30pm. As such, everyone was extremely tired and all we could think of is just the bed. huhuhu. Alhamdulillah everything went on well. My presentation went on smoothly. :-) I know, mesti abang doakan i kan kan kan.. :-)

Now its 11,25pm. Still early and yet i feel so sleepy and tired. But at the same time i want to shere this with you. So here i am, updating this blog for you. :-)

I miss you, abang.

Delhi - Day 1

Salam Abg

Just to share with you.
My flight was scheduled at 4pm. However it was delayed and only take off at 5.30 pm due to some technical error.
Reached Delhi at 7.45pm (10.15pm KL time)
Everything seems to be ok.

Just that power trip just now. I was freaking scared and stood by the door :-(
If only I hv a female fren, I would hv gone n sleep at her room.

Now it's 12.45 am here ( 3.22am in KL) so sleepy n tired. Me sleep dulu ya, and takegood care of yourself ya. Muahssss

Hari Raya continues.....

Salam Abang,

I wanted to write to you and share some update but ended up writing them here - in our blog. hehehe.
Yesterday, took mama to my Aunt house for raya. On our way back home, my boss called. Guess what? He'll be going to Delhi from 22/9 till 24/9 and he wants me to join him. GULP!!!! However, there is an issue whereby I'm incharge of the company's Teambuilding session (24 - 26 Sept) and need to be around. I'm waiting for Monday - when he decides if I need to go with him or otherwise. He's trying to arrange for a conference call or something like that (so that I can do my work remotely from KL). I want to go but at the same time, I'm freaking scared. What if they ask me 1001 questions and I'm not able to answer? I'm worried, Abang. How I wish you are here. You will always have ways and words to comfort me. MUAHS!!

Today is Saturday. Will be going to Kajang (Mak Long's house later) for raya. How was your raya, dear? InsyaAllah next raya, we shall celebrate together ya. Can't wait to see my abang in his baju melayu/kurung. :-)Me? I'll be wearing baju kurung later. Yes, the one is this photo. :-)

Salam AIdil Fitri.....

Salam Abang....

Just wanna wish you SELAMAT HARI RAYA. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.
I hope this will be the last ever raya that we will be far apart. :-)
Can't wait to celebrate AIdil Fitri with you.

Luv you , Abang. Muacksssss!!!!!

Pesanan buat Suami

Abang dearie....
I came across this article while surfing my facebook and would like to share with you. :-)

PESANAN BUAT SUAMI - Oleh Dato’ Dr Hj Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah

1. Selalu menghargai usaha dan penat-lelah isteri, terutama isteri yang bekerja dan sama-sama terpaksa menanggung hutang suami.

2. Bila isteri bercakap, pandanglah mukanya dan buka telinga luas-luas. Biar apa yang dikatakannya masuk telinga kanan dan tersumbat di telinga kiri. Sambil tu otak suami kenalah memproses informasi yang diterima daripada isteri dengan bijak serta prihatin.

3. Jangan sekali-kali membandingkan masakan isteri atau cara isteri menghias rumah dengan mak anda kecuali masakan/cara menghias isteri anda lebih baik dan canggih dari emak anda..

4. Jangan demand sex sekiranya isteri tak ada mood atau letih. Agama suruh kahwin bukan semata-mata untuk penuhi nafsu syahwat saja.

5. Kalau pasangan dah ada anak, sama-samalah menjaga anak. Benih dari awak juga.. Ada suami, isteri sedang makan disuruh cebok kencing n berak anak sedangkan suami duduk tersandar kekenyangan macam maharaja.

6. Jangan sekali-kali duduk tersandar depan TV atau relax-relax sedangkan isteri bila balik dari kerja, buka saja kasut terus masuk dapur, memasak, mengemas, membasuh, kejar anak dsbnya. Berbulu mata dan sayu hati isteri bila kami tak cukup tangan nak menguruskan rumahtangga sedangkan suami lepas tangan.

7. Sekiranya suami makan dahulu, tinggalkan sedikit lauk utk isteri. Jangan bedal semua sampai turn isteri yang tinggal cuma ekor ikan sekerat, janggut sotong dan ekor taugeh.

8. Kalau nak ajak member bertandang ke rumah, beritau isteri dulu, kalau boleh sehari-dua in advance. Jadi bolehlah dia memasak yang best-best dan mengemas rumah cantik-cantik. Bayangkan perasaan isteri kalau tetamu datang terpacak sedangkan kain-baju masih berlonggok belum sempat dilipat, permainan anak masih berselerak dan isteri cuma masak mi maggi saja.

9. Jangan sekali-kali menyakat isteri tentang saiz badannya yang semakin sihat atau semakin melidi. Tengok body sendiri dalam cermin dulu.

10. Jangan kentut depan isteri. Masa bercinta dulu kenapa boleh control kentut?

11. Hormatilah ibu-bapa dan kaum keluarga isteri walaupun anda cuma main wayang, bodek mereka masa nak mengurat isteri anda dulu. Jangan sekali mencaci mereka walaupun secara bergurau.

12. Jangan kedekut dengan isteri serta keperluan rumahtangga.

13. Jagalah maruah anda sebagai suami dan lelaki. Selagi boleh, jangan bebankan isteri dengan masaalah kewangan anda. Selalunya perempuan ni, semakin suami “degil” tak nak minta pertolongan, selagi itulah dia rela nak tolong.

14. Jangan bersepah dan bersikap pengotor. Dah buka baju, letakkan dalam bakul baju kotor, dah guna cungkil gigi, buanglah dalam bakul sampah, bila dah guna ubat gigi bubuh balik penutupnya, dah ambil sesuatu barang simpan balik ditempat asal, dah berak flush. Susah sangat ke nak buat macam tu? Semua nak kena ajar ke?

15. Rajin-rajinlah bertanya isteri kalau dia perlukan bantuan anda dengan kerja rumah/menjaga anak. Tapi jangan tanya dua tahun sekali. Jangan tunjuk rajin bila ada tetamu di rumah saja.

16. Hormatilah isteri anda sebagaimana anda mahu dihormati. Isteri pun manusia. Allah berikan banyak keistimewaan kepada para isteri tapi diputar-belitkan tafsirannya oleh orang lelaki untuk kepentingan diri sendiri.

17.. Jangan main kayu tiga dengan perempuan lain. Main lain lagi tak boleh. Kalau isteri awak yang buat, tentu awak tak boleh tolerate, jadi mengapa isteri awak kena tolerate kalau awak buat?

18. Kalau tak menyukai sikap atau perbuatan isteri, tegurlah secara baik, jangan asyik nak menengking aja. Kalau awak sakit nak mati nanti, siapa yang kena jaga awak? Bai jual roti? Apek jual sayur? Jiran sebelah rumah awak?

19. Kalau isteri nampak tak sihat, cepat-cepatlah bawa jumpa doktor. Tunjuklah anda mengambil berat tentang dirinya.

20. Berbincanglah dengan isteri sebelum sesuatu keputusan dibuat. Walaupun suami megah ada kuasa veto, tak jadi bapok kalau pendapat isteri diambil kira. Pokok pangkalnya ialah timbangrasa dan saling menghargai. Cubalah ketepikan ego yang keterlaluan. Bukannya laku bila dah mati nanti.

21. Dalami agama dan bimbinglah anak isteri dengan ikhlas seperti yang dituntut agama. Ingat, kalau seorang suami masuk syurga, besar kemungkinan isteri pun masuk syurga. Kalau suami masuk neraka belum tentu isteri juga masuk neraka. Kalau isteri masuk neraka, besar kemungkinan suami juga masuk NERAKA tapi kalau isteri masuk syurga belum tentu suami pun masuk syurga.Ini bukan rekaan saya tapi saya dengar dari seorang ustaz.

22. Berusahalah dengan ikhlas untuk mempertahankan keharmonian rumahtangga. Jangan buat apa yang isteri tak suka. Percayalah, kalau suami buat baik sekali dengan isteri, isteri balas sepuluh kali

23. Jangan buat donno kalau isteri merajuk atau berkecil hati. Kalau perlu minta maaf, minta maaf, kalau perlu dipujuk, pujuk. Hati orang pompuan ni sensitif. Kalau kami rasa suami tak ambil kisah, perasaan bagai dihiris-hiris. Perkara yang dipandang remeh oleh suami boleh menjadi kanser kepada isteri. Kepada para suami khususnya dan kaum lelaki amnya, janganlah dianggap masalah hati dan perasaan orang perempuan ni enteng sahaja.

Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Dan ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah mengetahui apa yang didalam hatimu, sebab itu berhati-hatilah dengan Tuhan”

Bad headache huhuhu

Abang.....
It's 1:40am and here I am, having a bad headache. :-( please don't be angry with me, dear. Cos the reason for this bad headache is due to lack of sleep huhuhu
I've just completed a beading work and tried to complete my office work but I counld not managed to complete it. I can hardly focus huhuhu I know it's my fault. :-( I'm sorry dear. I promise not to do it ever again k.

I guess I better stop here and get some rest. I can hardly open my eyes already hehehe
Good night, Abang. Sweet dream .......

Windu abang

Salam abang,
How are you, dear? Hopefully abang doing good. As for me, there's nothing that you should be worry about, dear. Everything is OK except for one thing.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH, Abang.
I know it's been a while since my last letter. However, abang need not worry, ok. That's simply because I'm busy with my fasting plus heavy workload. I hope abang will understand and do not blame me for not writing to you. Eventhough I do not write to you, you are always in my heart, always in my prayer and never a single day that I do not miss you, dear.

Abang, i love you so very much and hope that abg love me the same. Muacks!!!

Sakit....huhuhu :-(

Abang...sob sob sob...
I cut myself while cutting "sengkuang"
Blood was dripping. Huhuhu
Luckily bro was around and he helped me by applying Gamat Gel.

Auntie Aiza

Salam Abang,

I really really need to share this with you. :-)

A few days back, as i was chatting with your sister, suddenly Afiq was in the conversation. You know what? Kak Idah told him that she's going for a movie, alone. And guess what was his reply. "Ask ur mom or sister to acoompany you. Or just ask Auntie Aiza" Hahahahaha...... I guess he doesn't have a clue where am i staying. hehehe. So I decided to 'kirim salam' to him. Few seconds later, kak said "Afiq said waalaikumsalam, Auntie Aiza"

WHAT!!!!!!! AUNTIE Aiza????
Hahahaha.... He made me sound so matured.(not wanting to use the word old)
So i told kak - tell Afiq to just call me , kak aiza. hehehe Then kak told me that once, he almost called u , abg ewan - rather than Cik Ewan. hehehe. I think u already know me by now. As such - u would have known or guessed what my respond would be kan kan kan.

"U can cont to call him Cik Ewan.... but just call me Kak Aiza." hahahaha How do u like it, dear?

CIK Ewan and KAK Aiza.

At work....

Hye abang,

How are you? I've just sent you a letter yesterday. Hopefully you will receive it soon and reply back to me. As for me, everything is fine - i guess. Ok ok... everything is not fine. Goshhhh! It is so difficult and almost impossible to hide anything from you.


It started of with a conversation with my boss yesterday. We were discussing about the project that the company is aiming for. Out of a sudden, he made a statement "I really hope we can get this contract, or else it will be difficult to keep you" Of course i smiled as I thought it was a compliment. He really wants me to stay. My boss - he looks confused. Maybe wondering why is this girl still smiling despite of what he just said.

After lunch - a friend of mine requested for a copy of my resume for his reference. So i told him about my conversation with my boss. This friend of mine seems to think alot like my boss. Hehehe So that's the reason why I share the story with him. Suddenly, my heart stops beating and my world feels blank. Empty and clueless. According to him (which I totally agree), resource which does not contribute to the company and generate income is consider liability. So, I'M A LIABILITY to the company!!! Now , my boss's confused face makes more sense. And me, freanking scared.


So, since last night, I've been trying to figure out a plan for me. Now, I'm in the midst of updating my resume and will start job hunting soon. I've found one which caught my attention. But it is a big company. Chances might be slim but no harm in trying, right?

WISH ME LUCK, Dear!!!!

Lagenda Budak Setan

Salam Abang

Remember I told you in my letter - about me going to movie alone for the very first time? This was the movie. :-) Yes - it's a love story. Nothing much to huha about, but i just love the storyline and how loyal the male character can be - despite all the things that is been happening around him. :-( I would say a tragic love story.

This is the first book. There are 2 other books - the sequel. I heard they plan to film it as well. Hopefully we can go and watch it together. How do u like that idea?

2.50am

Chakkkk!!!!
Abang!!!yes yes I know it's getting late and it's almost 3am
I've just completed writing a letter to u :-)
hopefully u will write to me soon.
Miss you so much, dear.

Okla abg. Need to sleep as I'll be working torrow huhu
love you!!!

Tensionnnnnn!!!!!!

Aaaaaabang!!!

Do u miss me today? Abang miss me much2?
Abang, today at work, I was really pissed of with my friend. She has been getting on my nerves all the time. And everytime it happens, I just couldn't take it. I know I over reacted at times, but still, she doesn't have to make such sarcastic remarks, right?

Thank God, even without you around, I still have this blog to express my feelings, share with you all my experiences, every single thing. Thank you dear, for being my bestfriend whom I can share every single thoughts with you. Muacks!!!!

Opsssss it's 8.30pm and i'm still in my working attire hehehe buchukkk!!!!

Love you, dear!!!!!

Sunday.....

Hi aaaaaabang!!!!!

As promised, I'll write to you frequently, using my mobile phone of course. Abg, I just came back from my 2 nephews birthday lunch plus akikah. :-) I had kambingggg hehehe. No!! I do not smell like kambing OK. I'm still a peguin hehehe

I wonder what abg doing on Sunday afternoon? Later, we shall spend our weekends together ya. Abg, last night, we saw on TV - s'pore universal studio. You know what? My mom wanted to go. Then suddenly my mom starts making plans to go to SG. Next thing I know, my sister told her that if we were to go to SG, everything will be taken care of - accomodation and transportation.GULP!!!! So keipo la that girl. Kan kan kan. But abg don't worry ya. We'll plan for something, ok. Somehow I feel so excited- can't wait to introduce you to my family :-) Hope u feel the same.

Opssss it's almost 3.30pm. Solat time. I'll promise I'll write to u again soon ya.

Love you, Abang.

Missing you..... From my phone

Aaaaaaabang,

see!!!!! Just how much I miss you. I've figure out that I can update this blog using my mobile phone. Cool huh! Hehehe
I know it's not easy, typing using the keypad, but... Anything for u my dear. :-)
so, from now onwards, I can write to u at any time. So, watch out dear, there'll be lots and lots of updates and entries for u to read. Hehehe

sayang abg!!!!!

From Vietnam with love....

Aaaaaaabang....!!!! miss you, miss you and miss you. Much2, u know. :-) MUACKS!!!! I'm backkkkkk...... Can u recognize the girl in the pic? No no... she's not a vietnamese girl, but she's your peguin. Excited peguin during her boat ride in Mekong River. :-)

The trip was great. Tiring but interesting. I won't lie to you. I've been thinking about you all the time while i was there. Wishing that you were there with me. Abang, will you accompany me in my next trip? We shall go on vacation together and spend more time , quality time with each other. How do you like that, dear ?

Later, maybe in my next entry, i'll share with you the details of the trip, ok. Tonite, I wanna write to you. To share with you my experience in Vietnam.

Love you, Abang. mUackkksssss

Btw, i received your letter a day before my trip and i hate that letter very2 much. Wanna know why? Cos you ask me to go on a date with others. :-( I dun want others. I just want my chocolate. huhuhu So sad, knowing that he's letting me go just like that. As easy as that. hmmmmmmmm

Happy Mother's Day

Salam Abang

Today is Mother's Day. All mothers on Facebook are bragging about it. Cards from theirs, kids prepare breakfast for them, wishes them , bla bla bla. ANd me, I seriously envy them. But at the same time, I also wish and pray that I'll be given a chance to be a mom one day. :-) Do you think I can be a good mother, Yang?

Abang, I just came back from the clinic. Dr told me that I'm having ear infection. It hurts. huhuhu. How I wish you were here. You will definitely say things that will comfort me. I miss you dear.

ANyway, to conclude my entry today,

My new Buah Hati....

Aaaaaaaabang!!!! Chakkkk
How you like my new toy?
I bought it on 1st May but only today I have a chance to upload this entry for you. I thought with the new toy, it will keep me occupied. I guess I was wrong. Very very wrong. Cos with the new toy, I miss you even more. I want to share the moments with you, but you were not around. I wanted to share my happiness and excitement with you, but you were not there. So with that, I miss you much2, abang. SOb sob sob.

Bila abang nak balik?

Letter

Aaaaaaaabang!!!! chak!!!!!!

Guess what? I'm writing to you tonight. As such, this will be a very short entry, ok. Can't wait to write to you. So many things I want to share with you. :-)

I've just stopped my beading work - to be continue tomorrow. hehehe It's quarter past eleven. I better start writing to you now.

I'll update this blog later ok.

sayang abang - MUACKS!!!!

I'm scared.....

Salam Abang,

I know it's late. 2.50am. To be frank with you, I can't sleep. I tried, but I'm too scared to close my eyes. Suddenly I have this feeling, as if - if i were to close my eyes, you will be gone. Far far away from me. And never would I want that to happen. Not tonite, not now, not NEVER!!! And since then, I've been crying. I don't know why. But I miss you and I feeling like I'll be losing you. I'm scared, Abang.

Abang, why am I having this feeling? This weird feeling? I sayang abang, and I don't want to lose you. :-( Promise me that you will never leave me. But if you ever leave me, I'm sure she's very much better than me. Otherwise, you wouldn't leave me, right? Make sure she take good care of you,ok Abang. I will always be here for you. All I want....... IS FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY!

Sayang Abang. muah!

It's a Saturday

Goooooood morning Sayang,

So sorry dear. I wanted to write to you last night. Tapi tertidur la pulak. Hehehe. Maybe because I've been sleeping late for a few days - in my attempt to complete my reading. hehehe. MUACKS!!!!

Abang, today, there'll be a birthday lunch for my nephew. He's 7. So maybe in an hours time, I need to go out, to search for a birthday present. But I still don't have a clue what I should get for him. Maybe a Ben10 T. What say you, dear?

Btw, your letter is still on the way. Yes, I was rather disappointed yesterday. Huhuhu. Really hope it will reach me today. :-) With that, it will make me the happiest girl, and also a great weekend. hehehe. Sayang Abang.

Adam & Hawa

I read this in a book and I really liked it

Hawa dicipta dari tulang rusuk Adam,
Bukan dari kepalanya untuk dijadikan atasannya,
Bukan dari kakinya untuk dijadikan alasannya,
Melainkan dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidupnya,
Dekat pada lengan untuk dilindunginya
dan dekat di hati untuk dicintainya.

SAYANG ABANG.... SAYANG MUCH2.

Hurt....

Salam Abang,

Abang, how I wish you were here. And just how much I wish I can write to you and let you know what's bothering me. But I do not want to trouble you. As such, I decided to write in thiss blog instead.

Abang, you just don't know how it hurts when people around you making judgement without even trying to understand the situation. It hurts. It really does. Without knowing our constraints, they start passing remarks about our relationship. Questioning if we are really serious about this. But what hurts me the most, is when they started to question about you. Whats stopping you from moving to the next stage of this relationship. They say you are not serious about this. Since then, I can't stop crying. Neither can I stop thinking about you. Sometimes I feel shouting to the whole world about our situation. But I know, that will not help much. Instead, it might make things worst.

Abang, I miss you. Really hope that you can be by my side, close to me, to comfort me at times like this. I've got no one else to talk to other than you. But I will not write to youo about this incident as I do not what you to worry too much, ok dear

Abang take goodcare of yourself, ya. LOVE YOU!!!

Friday......

Salam Abang,

Just would like to share with you what happened to me last friday. No, I shall not mention this in my letter - afraid that you might be worried abt me. Anyway, out of a sudden, while i was walking to work, I feel like a part of me is missing. The pain, the hurt, mixed feelings. I'm not sure what it is, but all i know, out of a sudden, I miss you like crazy. And to make it worst, I almost break down in public. Luckily I manage to find the courage to continue walking till I reach my office. Huhuhu. Seriously, I really feeling like crying, Abang. Cos it really hurts knowing that you are not around.Knowing that I can't talk to you. Knowing that I can't hear your laughter. I MISS YOU!

and THAT NITE..... i cried like a baby. Sorry abg. I know i've made a promise not to cry, but I just can't help it. Please come home, Abang. Your penguin misses you alot.

Missing you, dearest one.

Assalamualaikum Abang ku sayang,
How are u, sweetheart? Do you have any idea how much I’m missing you? Suddenly the feeling of meeting up with you is so strong. Feel like taking the next flight and be there with you. I know…. I know… I have to be patient. Will you wait for me, dear?
Abang,
Today there’s a lot of work at the office. I feel so tired. If only you were here. You will sure crack some jokes, just to make me laugh. I miss that, dear. Miss that moment a lot. Sob sob sob.

Sepupuku Suamiku

Aaaaaaabang!!!!!
I know its been a while since my last entry. Sorry yg Sayang. Been rather busy completing beading orders. I really hope you don't mind. I promise to spend more time with you from today onwards, OK. I promise. Heeeee

Abang,
I've just completed reading this book. Guess what? I always imagine that the male character in this book is YOU. Yes, you - my dearest one. Ntah la, i just can sense the similarities. I might be wrong but I know I can trust my inner sense. :-) I know I might not be as pretty as the female character, but trust me - I LOVE YOU more than she loves her husband. MUACKS!

Such a romantic love story.

A date with Schumacher

Abangggggggggggg
I'm so excited today.
I actually have a date with Schumacher. Yes, the one and only, Michael Schumacher. :-)

Happy birthday, Sayang......

Tired..........

Abanggggggg

I'm so tired!!!!! sob sob sob.
My work load is increasing rapidly. Been receiving task after task each day. And to add to that, I've got 2 beading orders to be completed in 2 weeks time. :-( I'm seriously worn out already. Huhuhu.

Suddenly I remember what you wrote in one of your letters. "Beading is just a hobby, remember? Please don't worn yourself" Huhuhu Surprisingly, i really miss you Abang. Eventhough I know if you are ard, for sure Abang will bebel non-stop. kan kan kan. :-)

Abang tau tak, right now, while writing this entry, I am feeling sick already. Seriously hope i will not catch fever. Cos i really need to complete my beading. Ok la abang, I cont my beading jap k. Then i'll hit the bed, i promise.

Love you, Abang.

ps. Bila abg nak balik nih? Windu kat abang. MUACKS!!!!!

I LOVE YOU