My Soulmate

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MY SOULMATE!

DEAR READER,

THIS COMES IN HOPING TO FIND YOU WELL;
THERE'S SOMETHING INSIDE ME I OUGHT TO TELL.
AS MY FINGERTIPS PUNCH EVERY WORD;
I REALLY, REALLY HOPE YOU'LL LIKE MY WORK.

I CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN I BID MY FAREWELL;
BUT 7 YEARS OF HAITUS, I'M CAME BACK FROM HELL.
WHEN I GAIN, AT LAST, MY FREEDOM BACK;
CLUELESS OF ME, UNSURE WHAT TO EXPECT.

I STARTED TO ROAM TO A DESTINATION OF NOWHERE;
INSIDE ME I KNOW SHE'S OUT THERE, SOMEWHERE.
COME UNDONE, I STARTED TO DESCEND MY PACE;
THEN I SAW THIS INNOCENT, SMILING FACE.

AT ONE GLANCE, IN MY HEART I KNOW IT WAS YOU;
THAT CONSTANT SILHOUETTE THAT I'VE ALWAYS VIEWED.
SUDDENLY, THE CRAVING TO KNOW YOU IS REAL;
IS THIS FEELINGS I HAD GENUINE OR MERE VIRTUAL?

WITH SHAKING HAND I THROW THE DICE;
WAITING ANXIOUSLY, HOPING FOR HER REPLY.
SCRUTINZING AT THE BLINKING SCREEN BEFORE ME;
FOR HOURS I'VE WAITED, YOUR ARRIVAL YET TO BE SEEN.

SO I PACKED MY BAG, BID MY GOODBYES;
WITH TREMBLING HANDS, WEARY EYES.
ISOLATED MYSELF, DON'T WANT TO COMMUNICATE;
CAME UNEXPECTEDLY, THIS E-MAIL FAR AWAY'

AS I CLICK, MY ADRENALINE RUSH LASTED FOR HOURS,
SAY YOU'RE FOR ME AND THIS RELATIONSHIP I'LL ENDEAVOUR.
SOMETIMES I THINK THIS STATEMENT IS FUNNY TOO;
BUT DEAR, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU EVEN BEFORE I MET YOU.

I'LL LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND IF YOU ARE MEANT FOR ME TO TAKE;
WITH THESE FORLORN HANDS, I'LL BUILD A CASTLE FOR YOU TO STAY.
PLEASE BE THE QUEEN OF MY VERY HEART, I BEAR NOT BE APART;
LEAVING ME IS LIKE TEARING ME INTO SMALLEST, SMALLEST PARTS.

I'LL CALL YOU IF I'VE A KING'S RANSOM IN DIME;
JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT.
IF YOU ARE NOT MEANT FOR ME, I'LL BREAK;
THEN I'LL STRIDE AWAY FROM YOU, MY SOULMATE!

For the one i love......

This poem was written on 17th May 2007.
I can't believe I actual wrote this poem for you, dear.
Hahaha (How on earth I manage to write such lovely poem)

3rd February was when I met my soulmate,
Special person which I will never trade.
Roses are red, violets are blue,
My life begins when I met you,

Starts with a hello, short and simple,
Grows into something irrevocable,
To live without you, it's just impossible,
Dear, you are so irreplaceable,

You make me feel like I'm in heaven,
The best place that God has given,
Friendster and MSN brought us together,
Heartening the "butterfly" to fly ever higher.

To be with you, I'll run all the way,
Even if it means crossing the causeway.
Keep your promise, dear, somehow, someway
I beg you, Sayang, please don't you go away.

In my heart you will stay,
Never will I let it slip away,
Always keep this in mind what I will say,
I love you till my dying day.

Jogging session @ Tasik Permaisuri

Good morning dearest one,

How are you today? I'm feeling great with a slight bodyache. Maybe it's due to my jogging session by the lake yesterday evening. When to the lake with my sis and parents. In total, i guess i jogged for almost 4km. Not bad eh? Can't wait to surprise you with my new appreance. However, most importantly, I want to be healthy.

Did I tell you that recently, a guy had a chest pain. So he drove himself to the hospital. Upon reaching the hospital, Dr claim that he's in good condition and nothing to be worried about. Out of a sudden, he collapsed and passaway. It was a sudden death to the family and friends. Sad, kan dear. So that is why, I'm trying to start a new healthy lifestyle. hehehe. Wish me luck, ya. Plan to go to the lake again today. Hoyay...!!!!

It's my jogging day....

I DID IT! I DID IT!

Do you know why I am so excited, dear? It is simply because I finally manage to get myself out from the house and jog! Yes, you read it correctly. Your little penguin went for a jogging session with her brother and sister yesterday evening (after work). It is only for a short distance but at least something for a start, right? In total, I jog for about 3km. Not bad kan? hehehe Too bad I didn’t get a chance to snap a photo of me jogging. Maybe I’ll do that in the next session and post it here, k. Like you said, you have done your part. So now, it is my turn, to play my part. Wait for you patiently and also get rid of some kilos. Hehehe I want to surprise you with my new appearance and hopefully it will happen.MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Your crying baby

Hehehe...... Buruk kan? This is your crying baby, dear. Naughty girl eh, tak dengar cakap abg, not to cry. But surprisingly, I didn't cry that often. Serious la dear. Hehehe.... Hard to believe eh? Well, u know what? I cried last night. Reason being, ever since you are gone, I've always wanted to dream about you. But sad to say, you have never appear in any of my dreams. And i miss you so badly. That was why I cried last night. You know what , dear? Last night, finally you appeared in my dream, in the most romantic way. :-)

Thank you dear, for making that appearence. However, at 3am, i was waken by the strong wind. It was raining heavily outside with strong wind. Due to strong wind, my window was widely open. As such, my curtain was flying as if nak tercabut already. Hahaha..... (My english rabak sey) Anyway, too bad that sweet dream had to end suddenly :-( sob sob sob. Anyway, at least I got to see you, eventhough justin a dream.

Love you, dear.
I know, you miss me too over there.
Be patience my dear. Think about the future, our future, ok.
Can't wait to write to you. :-)
Its getting late. Its now 2340hrs. I better hit the bed or abg gonna shout at me and say "Ayang....... SLEEP!!!!!" hehehe
I miss that shout of yours. huhuhu
Many atimes I almost dialed your number, thinking that you are around. :-( Looking forward to the ending of this short separation.

Love you. MUAK!!!

21st April 2009

Dearest Abang,

Sorry for not updating this blog for a while. Life has been pretty hectic lately. But that doesn't mean that I've forgotten you. Not even for a single millisecond that you are not in my thoughts, dear. Anyway, want to share these photos with you. Last Saturday, I miss you so badly.

To overcome that, I decided to clean up my bedroom. Abang want to see the result? See! I told you I can manage myself and keep myself occupied while you are away. So worry not my dear. Your little penguin will be just fine. Check-out these photos, dear. My bedroom.

16 April 2009

GOOD NEWS.

I was on the way to work, to be more specific, queing for my train, i received a text message from "Ita SG". And u know what, dear? She told me that "Abg has long surrendered, since 11 April". I know i should feel sad, but instead only God knows how relief I felt. At least now I know that you are safe, dear. Most of all, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, My dearest Abang. Proud because you finally took this major step. I'll wait for you, this I promise you.

Ita told me that she will be able to visit you in 2 weeks time. I'll be counting the days. In fact, i'm counting the day that you'll be released.

Take good care of yourself, k dear. Cos I am.

13th April 2009

Today is the fourth day since you have been gone. Ita and I have been worrying and waiting for you. We pray that you are in a place somewhere safe and in good health.
Is this what you meant when you say “It’s hard to say goodbye to someone you love?” Well, dear, you don’t have to worry about me, ok. I’ll be fine. I’ll promise to take good care of myself and wait for you.

You know what, Yang? Yesterday, my siblings, and me went to watch a movie, Fast and Furious 4. One of the best movies. Nanti when abang dah release , we shall go for movies together, ok. Yesterday wawa booked for an early bird show, 11am. And the rule is that, we need to collect the tickets 45mins before the show. So you can imagine the “chaoticness” at home, having to wake my brother on Sunday morning. Arghhhh. Anyway, I really enjoy the movie. Not to mention Van Dissel too hehehe.